Reflection: Treehouse

Treehouse Suspended between reality and dreams, cedar walls breathe out their warm welcome – a scent from some Other place. Spider’s webs and dust motes allow a relieved settling into unsophistication. A garden chair, softly padded, receives me quietly. A match scratches, flares. A candle flame finds its balance. I settle to awareness. Leaves flutter, […]

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LIFE QUESTIONS: WILL I PASS?

The chain chinks as I wiggle the key in the bike lock. My finders are clumsy in the December cold. I dump my bag in the basket, and I’m off, slowly gaining pace in the late afternoon fog. As I emerge from side-streets to turn onto the main road to the hospital, I become aware that this […]

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REFLECTION: NHS feet

As a child, I was always a bit horrified by my great aunt’s shoes. Dark brown, functional, but lumpy in all the wrong places. No-nonsense shoes for a no-nonsense person. Shoes that reflected her strictness. I wondered whether I would like to be one of her piano pupils, as I’m sure they were scolded regularly […]

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Life Question: How do you deal with risk?

I lay shivering in my sleeping bag, muscles clenched against the cold. How was I ever going to get warm? 10,000 feet up in the Mountains of the Moon in a remote corner of Uganda, I wondered whether I would ever be warm again. I fretted about whether I would ever get out of those […]

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Life Question: What really counts in the end?

My great granny was awarded a degree by London University in 1905. The man she married (my great-grandfather) became Provost of University College London. Their daughter (my granny) won a scholarship to Girton College Cambridge and studied hard (though she couldn’t get a degree because Cambridge didn’t award them to women in 1932). Her husband, […]

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Reflection: Lockdown respite

stars hidden silent snowfall subduing all stirring procrastination visits with this sunrise stirring curtains a shiver of expectation: arrested enchantment transfigures lockdown stupor a doorway opens: childhood relived! squirming with suppressed excitement, restrained – set free! stamping on pristine precipitation a thump of snowball a shriek of retaliation soft war slipping off sledges sussuration of […]

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LIFE QUESTION: WHY IS IT SO HARD TO TRUST GOD? (2)

I stood in the middle of the African hospital compound and howled. I’d just received a message that my fiance could not visit that weekend. A tsunami of distress floored me. We’d endured so much during the last few months. We’d had the frustration of being posted to different hospitals. We’d suffered the lack of […]

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Life question: Why is it so hard to trust God? (1)

When people say happily ‘God has never let me down’, I’m tempted to retort ‘Really?’ When you prayed that your relative wouldn’t die from cancer, and they passed away, could you really say it didn’t feel as if God had let you down? When you asked for a new job and your applications bore no […]

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Reflection: That elusive Christmas spirit

I’ve had odd Christmases before. There was the Christmas day in Uganda when we emerged from a morning church service to the sight of a young man parading down the street. As he turned his head towards me, four eyes caught mine, not two. Slowly I realised he had an inverted cow’s head balanced on […]

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